Scan Date

I've now got an appointment for the "12-week" scan. How exciting! It's
9.05am on Tuesday 28th August @ the Jessop Wing. I could have done
with it being during the week before but there wasn't any appointments
left. It's only because we're away BH weekend with all my family and I
can see it's going to be hard not saying anything while we're with
them.

I've also got an appointment to see the midwife at the local surgery a
couple of weeks before the scan. Not exactly sure what that's for but
hey!

The start of morning sickness?

I wouldn't say it's sickness, I just don't feel right on a morning.
More like that hungry, sickly feeling when you're tired and haven't
eaten properly. Is it morning sickness then? I can cope if it is and
it stays like this. But I'm dreading it getting worse over the next
two weeks at the jamboree - Sod's Law says it will though. I can't
think of much worse than feeling/being sick at camp :(

What a difference a bra makes!

Just been and got fitted for a new bra after the recent enlargement
procedure - and now the boobs feel a whole lot more normal. Hurrah!
Although they weren't as painful as a week or two ago, they were
permanently feeling uncomfortable and the thought of two weeks at camp
like that was not appealing.

Not quite rocks!

Hurrah! They don't feel quite as heavy and sore now. More like large stones now!

Big boobs!

Grr! They feel like 2-ton rocks...

Names

I know it's very early, but we can't help it!

We're already making lists of names we like. And already there's
disagreements. But there's also agreements, so that's OK.

It's really hard - a lot of names we like end in "e" sound, or their
nicknames do. And they don't sound much good with the surname Pinney.

I'm thinking about meanings and not just whether I like the sound, but
Dave doesn't seem to bothered about that bit.

We want something unusual - so all their friends won't have the same
name (No Jack or Ellie here!) - but we don't want to do too wacky that
no-one has heard of it, no-one can spell it or it's just plain mad!

Due date?

According to the date of my last period, it's going to be sometime
after 9th March. We'll get a better idea after the dating scan, but
that's close enough to be thinking about now!

Just been to the doctor

A few weeks after having told the doctor she was out of a job, 'cos I
was coping with my depression, I was back!

But this time it was really nice to go. She was running late and had
obviously had a bad day - but told me that her news had "made her
day!" which was really nice.

Took my blood pressure - OK - and chatted about what happens next -
antenatal appointments, foods to avoid etc - and that was it. I
thought she'd want a wee sample to check, but nothing.

OK, so it's not that bad

In fact it's good!

I'm fit and healthy. We're going to have a baby - an exciting, if not
scary thought. And the rest will sort itself out.

Dave went to the pub last night with Mark & Andrew, so I went round to
Mel and had a good chat about everything. As that old BT ad said "It's
good to talk"! And I do feel a lot happier about things now.

I'm still hungry and my boobs hurt, but it's not that bad! God is with
us and won't let us down - and that's good to know.

Thoroughly miserable

Dave heard today he didn't get the job in Derby, which means we're
potentially looking at him not having a permanent job, me locuming but
actually not wanting to do pharmacy at all, and a baby to look after.
I know it's nine months down the line and a lot can happen in that
time, but there just doesn't seem to be anything even on the distant
horizon.

He's upset about it, I'm upset about it and it's all doom and gloom.
We're off out for a meal to try and cheer us up. What I really want is
a big Baileys but sadly that's out of the question now!

It's all a bit surreal

This time last week everything was just bumbling along as "normal". And now things have changed! One small bit of plastic with a couple of windows and a blue line, and suddenly we're facing a whole new adventure.
Let's just say that it wasn't unplanned, but wasn't exactly expected. To be honest it's all happened a bit quickly and that's what makes it seem a bit unbelievable at the moment. I was excited when the blue line first appeared, and I still am, but it's more an unbelieving excitement now!
No "symptoms" as yet - no morning sickness or anything - and I guess that doesn't help make it any more believable. No that I'm complaining though - I can quite happily do without feeling sick each and every day of the next few months!
I've got a doctor's appointment for next Friday. Last time I went - just about 3 weeks ago - was going to be my last one for a while. I'm off my antidepressants now, feeling a whole lot better and life is hunky-dory, so the doctor said she didn't want to see me again - we even joked that she would be without a job if I wasn't seeing her! At least I'm going for a nice reason this time.